Coughing. Up. Blood.
Angry = Yes. Much.
I'm so bloody frustrated with my useless lungs. Seriously, can they not just give me a break? They screwed up christmas, and my birthday for me, can they not just give me a couple of months off now?
Its 4 weeks, to the day, since my embolisation. It was one of the most horrible experiences I've had, and not something I want to repeat in a hurry. I knew from the start it wouldnt fix the bleeding permanently, but I must admit to hoping that it would control it for a little longer than 4 weeks!!
I've had 2 bleeds in the last 24hrs now. After the events of December and January, when I didnt go longer than 48hrs without a bleed for a month, I'm feeling a little apprehensive.
I just hope this is a blip, and it'll settle. But after last time, I cant help feeling a bit panicky.
Clinic next week anyway. Had my routine check up booked for wednesday, so we'll see how things are then.
I wont be ringing Papworth unless I'm like, dying. I do not like ringing at night/weekends. Because on call doctors are annoying. A majority of the time, they have no idea who you are, and dont really have much knowledge of CF.
What doesnt kill me, makes me stronger. Apparently. Lol.