Midnight ramblings

Sooo. I wasnt gonna write a blog tonight. But Gavin apparently actually likes to read the utter rubbish I write, and he said I should.
Personally I think he just likes the excuse to read something that isnt about Biochemistry. Lol.
But I do like to keep him happy, cos hes pretty awesome. So here we go...

Disclaimer: I have been to the pub to see a band tonight, and had several drinks. I will like, triple check this before I publish it, but I apologise for any spelling mistakes that sneak through... Lol!
My phone usually saves me from those horrible alcohol influenced typos and spelling errors, because I use predictive text, and I can only use words in a dictionary... Haha!

I've had a good couple of days really. Yesterday evening I went out with Mum, Dad and Ryan, we drove up to ashridge and went for a wander. Did plenty of climbing. Well, not sure you can call what I did climbing. I wasnt quite so brave as the boys were. Haha. But still, it was a giggle. I'm sure I'm closer to my parents, just because we all act like idiots together.
And its sooooo pretty up there too, I love it.

Today I went shopping in Harpenden with Liz and Evie. Originally we planned to go look at Wedding cakes for Liz and Ashley, but the shop was closed, typically! So we wandered round the other shops. Lots of clothes and toy shops. Personally, I was with Evie, and prefering the toy shops. =) I'm such a kid at heart.
There was one shop that had this gorgeous wooden castle, and all the little wooden people, and I so wanted it!! And the little wooden train set.
Not sure I can ask for a wooden train set for my 21st Birthday though... Might get some strange looks.
I'd love to be a kid again. Watching Evies little face looking at all the toys, and pretty things. It would be amazing to be that carefree and content again.

ARGH! My arm hurts.
* Just tried to brush my hair... *
Yes, I have the attention span of a goldfish. Or worse.

I woke up this morning, and I've done something strange in my sleep, because my left arm REALLY hurts. I can barely move it without getting really sharp pains shooting up it.
I'm not used to these 'normal' pains.
I can deal with the CF related stuff, but I whine like a bitch about this kind of thing. LOL!
Dad says its a symptom of too much texting... LOL! I say hes just jealous because Gavin and Stiv dont text him... Haha.

Its only like a couple of days til my walk now!!
I'm so excited.
I'm so terrifed.
Haha. I am sure I can do this now though. Powered by adrenalin, determination, and probably Lucozade. ;)
Also, Got my CF Trust Tshirt in the post today. =)

I just hope that I can make Marc proud. He meant so much to me, and had such an impact on the person I am, and the person I will be. I wish there was a better way I could show it.
Miss him, very much.

So, thats my ramblings for tonight.

Love xx

Home stuff

Home is good. =)

I have completely exhausted myself, already.

Went into town yesterday, to see Liz and pick up a couple of cards. Which meant walking to the train station, (15 minutes, and a hill) walking round town, then walking back from the station.

Then I went to the pub. And overdid it a tiny bit.

So yeah, suffering today. I need to learn to slow down a little I think. I do like to do everything at once. Lol.

But I got to see Liz and Evie. And look in a wedding dress shop. (PRETTY!) And get dirty looks for pushing a push chair around. Apparently I dont look old enough to have a 9 month old baby. Haha.

And I drove Ryans car yesterday! Haha. Only to the end of the road. And only at about 3mph. LOL! But I drove. It was scary. But awesome at the same time. I've never really had any desire to drive. Its always just been something that I figured I'd do eventually. But now, after a couple of minutes in a car, I am desperate to start driving!! =)

I sent off my DLA and ESA forms today. The social worker sorted them out for me. So in a few weeks I should know what I am entitled to, and hopefully I'll be a little less reliant on my parents for every little thing. The social worker couldnt believe I'd only been claiming lowest rate care DLA until now. Hopefully the DLA people will agree with him. Haha.

Lovelove xx

Girlyness, continued.

Went out with the girls last night. =D

Was a good night. 8 of us went in the end.
Me, Liz, Lauren, Grace, Ria, Emma, Gemma and Vicki.
Sam was supposed to be coming, but her little girls not been too well for a few days.

Originally, the plan was to go to Nando's, but you cannot book a table at the weekend. Which is bloody stupid tbh. When we got there, it was gonna be a 2 hour wait, just to even get a table. So in the end we had out dinner in the White House. (Wetherspoons)
It was pretty good, but not Nandos. Lol.

Food was irrelvant though really, was just good to see everyone. We couldve ended up in McDonalds and not really cared. Except, McDonalds does not serve alcohol. ;)

I didnt want to come home after, lol. Was on such a high. Which is just proof that my health is the best its been in a while. Normally I'm desperate for the night to end when I'm out, just so I can get home without being the party-pooper. Haha.

Definately not going to leave it so long til next time. If nothing comes up beforehand, I'll plan something in July. Because Liz and Lauren have 21st birthdays in July. And Gemma will have her 20th. So will Sam.
Julys gonna be an expensive month. *Sigh* Thats only the college birthdays. Theres Pete, and Ellis. And Clairey.
Eeeep.

Haha. =)

And, 2 more sleeps til Pancake day! ;) LOL!

Lovelove xx

I want a Pikachu.

Tinnitus.
Sucks.
Majorly.

Its been going on, on and off, for weeks now. And I may soon just go insane.

On the plus side, I went to see Liz and Evie today. I do love them so much. But it always makes me broody.
I would love to have a baby. To be someones mum. To have someone who loved me unconditionally, and that I could love in return with all my heart.
And babies find joy in the smallest things. They dont care if you have fancy things, and lots of money, because they create their own games. Its amazing to watch.

Lovelove xx