Totweek and Stuff =)

Hey guys!!

So, I had an amazing time while I was away!
I made it all the way to Darlington without any trouble on the trains, which is basically a miracle in itself. =P
And somehow I resisted the urge to go to Hogwarts...



And I reminded myself of just how gorgeous St Pancras Station is. It is such an amazing building.


And I loved every second while I was there. Everyone made me feel so welcome, and I cant wait to go back!!

Got my sinus operation booked for the 15th September now. I'll give myself a couple of weeks to recover from that, and then I think I'll be heading back to go see everyone. I cant wait!

Off out tomorrow night, to a BBQ/Party for Clives birthday. Will be strange because I havent spent any real time with that family for a long time. Me and Ryan grew up with Paula and Clives children.

Then next weekend is Liz's hen night! And the following weekend is her wedding!! EEEEEEEP! So excited for her. =)

xxxxxx

Tot Birthday!!

Happy Birthday Stiv/Tot/Michael!!!!

<3

Giant Epic Uber Hugs.

xxxxxxxxx

Tots, Sinuses, and Other stuffs.

Well! I'm much happier now.
I have heard from my Tot.
He had to have surgery today. Only sinus surgery, so not the most major thing in the world. He'd had it before. I've had it before. I knew it'd be fine. But I still worried constantly for those few hours.

I hate being helpless. Hes my best friend in the world, and I didnt like not being able to make him feel better.
It was very backwards. I'm supposed to be in hospital, and hes supposed to be at home. Thats how our relationship works! 8-)

Ironically, I got MY ENT appointment through this morning. So I'll be seeing the consultant at Addenbrookes on the 30th March, at 11.45. FINALLY.
I dont really care what they say, I'll just be glad if they can stop this constant pain, because its driving me crazy, and I cant stand it much more.

I was sat today, trying to work out what to get people for Birthdays. Got loads coming up in the next couple of months.
Pete, Stiv, Evie, and Danni are all this month.
And then Clairey, Pete, Liz, Emma, Sam, Ellis are all next month. Theres some others too I think... =/
I dont bloody know what to buy people!!
Was worrying about fathers day too. Until Ryan reminded me that I've already given him money for Dads present. Which I had totally forgotten!! Ryan couldve got away with that one... Silly boy! Hehe!

Only 5 weeks til I go to stay with Stiv and Claire now! And 2 and a half til I see them in London. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! <3

Epic hearts! =)

Love xx

Tweet!

You know when theres someone on your mind, and everything you see, everything you hear, every song you listen to, EVERYTHING makes you think about them, and your mind somehow connects everything to them...
Fucking annoying, isnt it? But I still love it anyway. Makes no sense. Lol.
I'm already the most insanely emotional person I know, with an ability to cry at anything. I dont need any added help! Sigh.

xx

I have TWITTER!
I dont really understand it. But I daresay I'll pick it up as I go along.
Only really got it as a new way to stalk Stiv. Haha. =)

FINALLY heard from the ESA people today. Theyre going to give me money!! Just need to send them a medical certificate, and like prove I'm not pretending to have CF or anything... (I bloody wish...) Haha.

Anyway, once thats done, I'll go on the assessment rate while their doctors assess me. Again with the making sure I'm really ill. Lol.
But thats £50 a week I didnt have before!! Plus they'll backdate it to when I sent my forms off. Yay.

I FINALLY wont be reliant on mum and dad for every tiny little thing!! There are no words to explain how happy this makes me.

In other random news, I have an obsession with dairylea cheese spread!! Omg, I had forgotten how much I love it.
Oh and I managed to throw myself the WHOLE way down the stairs yesterday and not hurt myself! Proud much, that takes skill.

Lungs are acting up a little bit. =/
It has been 6 and a half weeks off IVs, but I would like them to hold out a little longer.
I dont feel terrible, yet, but I'm getting quite coughy, and I've had a couple of little bleeds over the last few days. (Which I'm working on hiding from Mum... Cos she gets all over protective.) I've got tranexamic acid at home anyway, so I've started that, and I guess I'll ring Papworth next week if I still dont feel great.
I've learnt not to leave it til the last minute, I only end up regretting it when I feel like shit, and wonder why I didnt listen to mum. I'm relying on the power of positive thinking a bit though. Lol.

Got to stay well anyway. Got lots planned at the end of June.
CF Charity night down the pub. Evies 1st birthday!!!!! (Excited for that, much. Although she cannot POSSIBLY be nearly 1.) Danni's 18th Party. And Race for Life.
All in the space of 4 days!!
Got to find a costume for Danni's party still. ARGH!

xx

Tan lines and other stuffzz.

I cant believe how awesome the weather has been the last few days! I've spent so much time sat in the garden, reading or listening to music, or just listening to the birds sing or the children up the road laughing. =) Its lovely.

I got tan lines today!
This is quite an achievement for me! I usually go from pale, to burnt and back to pale again. With no tanned stage in between. But today I have very definite tan lines! Haha. YAY! Slightly burnt on my chest, and my shoulders though. =/ Lol.

Ryans birthday tomorrow! Well, in under an hour now! Scary.
My little brother is all grown up now.
Still my little brother though. Bless him.
He bought me 3 Kinder Buenos yesterday. Because I didnt want an easter egg. I dont really like chocolate much, which is weird I know. I just dont. I'd rather have sweets, or crisps. But he knows I've had a slight obsession with them recently.
He can be sweet. When he wants to... Thats just not very often. Haha!

I'm still waiting patiently for any kind of response from the ESA forms I sent off. Its only been 3 weeks, but just some kind of acknowledgement would be nice. Meh. =/

Urgh, on a side note, why are matters of the heart so damn complicated!! GAH!
Love, and relationships, and all related topics... They all just cause so much heartache.
Why cant it be like the movies. Where everyone just sings to each other, and lives happily ever after? =) Lol

Lovelove xx

Oh, just over 2 weeks til our walk!!
I'm actually looking forward to it, because this weather has me feeling pretty good, and I'm actually feeling rather positive about it all. =)

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Ryans 18th =) And stuff.

I cant believe that in 8 days, my little brother is going to be 18!
I guess that in some ways, he seems older, just because I dont always think of him as my 'little' brother. He's 6ft 3, and he just doesnt seem the kind of person who needs looking after. Lol.
But in others, he is very much my little brother.
I'd do anything to protect him, and keep him from getting hurt. And for all we fight and argue, I love him to bits.

Hes not doing much for his 18th, because he wants to save the money for his car. Bless him. It'll be nice now hes 18 though. Just to go down the pub if we want to. =) And it means he can come to the Charity night down the pub if he wants. Yay.

My sinuses are still very much driving me insane. They arent allowed to be bad, because I have too much going on this summer! I cannot schedule surgery time! Lol. I'm supposed to stay home for 2 weeks after... Because they cannot cover a wound thats inside your nasal passages, and its an infection risk.
I dont want to give up 2 weeks of my summer! LOL!

My breathing is kinda dodgy too.
Its hard to explain really. When I'm just sitting around, not doing anything to use any energy, I feel really great.
Then I move...
Haha.

I hoovered the living room today, and I was half dead. And walking home with mum, after meeting her at work... Its only about a 5 minute walk, but I had to stop twice. The second time I was so out of breath and dizzy that I could see about 4 of everything. =/ Not great.

I'm sooooooooo fed up of having no money. Its driving me mad. I've heard nothing from the ESA people. And the DLA people had just sent me a letter to acknowledge receiving my forms, and tell me it could be up to 11 weeks for a decision.
I wish I could get my health under control enough to work. I WANT to work. I dont want to be on benefits. GAH! But unfortunately, until I can stop being ill constantly, and in hospital so much, its not even an option.
I'm sure people just think I'm lazy. =/ I spent 21 weeks on IVs last year. Its not laziness. Its not a choice.
So why do I still feel so guilty? Lol.

xx

Girlyness, continued.

Went out with the girls last night. =D

Was a good night. 8 of us went in the end.
Me, Liz, Lauren, Grace, Ria, Emma, Gemma and Vicki.
Sam was supposed to be coming, but her little girls not been too well for a few days.

Originally, the plan was to go to Nando's, but you cannot book a table at the weekend. Which is bloody stupid tbh. When we got there, it was gonna be a 2 hour wait, just to even get a table. So in the end we had out dinner in the White House. (Wetherspoons)
It was pretty good, but not Nandos. Lol.

Food was irrelvant though really, was just good to see everyone. We couldve ended up in McDonalds and not really cared. Except, McDonalds does not serve alcohol. ;)

I didnt want to come home after, lol. Was on such a high. Which is just proof that my health is the best its been in a while. Normally I'm desperate for the night to end when I'm out, just so I can get home without being the party-pooper. Haha.

Definately not going to leave it so long til next time. If nothing comes up beforehand, I'll plan something in July. Because Liz and Lauren have 21st birthdays in July. And Gemma will have her 20th. So will Sam.
Julys gonna be an expensive month. *Sigh* Thats only the college birthdays. Theres Pete, and Ellis. And Clairey.
Eeeep.

Haha. =)

And, 2 more sleeps til Pancake day! ;) LOL!

Lovelove xx